are you living your life to its fullest?

i often say that i think i am part raven or crow or magpie.

family corvidae.

i CANNOT look away from shiny objects, even in magazines.

i see silver bags, shoes and jewelry and i get hypnotized.

i'm on page 93 of the august issue of elle magazine right now, looking at a page of silver accessories, including the new mirrored LV bag.

my pupils are spiralling.

so anyway.

here's something to think about: what are you afraid of?

i think i have atychiphobia. but who doesn't?

a photographer friend offered to photograph me, and suggested i start collecting images i like the look/feel of, so he could get an idea of what would make me happy. for whatever reason, the first two people who came to mind were thandie newton and monica bellucci.

friend: why?
me: eyes, mostly. but also strength... neither of them are like, "oh look at me i'm a pretty little girl."it's more like "i am a woman and you may photograph me but you may not touch or ever really know me..."
sexy but defensive. "fuck you," not "fuck me."

as i was typing to him i realized what an interesting little pop psychology quiz it was.
what i'd revealed. what i wanted my picture to say about me, what i wanted him to think about me.

anywho.
i'd love to be photographed by ellen von unwerth. just looks like fun fun fun.

or maybe i just like high contrast black and white.